sometimes, when I listen to music made by human beings, I feel... sick. I feel fear, anger, envy, insecurity. just knowing there was a person on the other end of that can activate my fight or flight response. there's something I find dreadful about that connection. am i afraid of not being enough. am i afraid of letting someone in. afraid of being overshadowed and forgotten.

how it feels to be reminded that i am part of a social species and have no choice in the matter and that nobody will know how i feel or listen to me without wanting me to be locked up
Almost all Japanese animation is produced with hardly any basis taken from observing real people, you know. Its produced by humans who cant stand looking at other humans. And thats why the industry is full of otaku! - Hayao Miyazaki

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